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Post by shadethefluffmech on Jun 25, 2023 7:32:06 GMT -5
Im kinda having an existential crisis
Thinking about the fact that none of this matters is scary
Everything that ive ever done was for nothing
All the games ive played
All the friends ive made
All the effort ive put into existing as a person that i can mostly feel good about even in artificial worlds
Everything is going to die and fade
I might have to watch as the people here slowly dwindle into nothingness
To quote a song
Ive tried so hard and got so far
But in the end nothing really matters
I havent started crying over much in years
But this haunts me and i get closer and closer to truly crying each time
I dont want to see you all disappear about as much as i dont my boyfriend
Even though we fight sometimes and some of you make me very angry at times it still scares me
Now that i explore these feelings a bit i think its why i havent made like a fish in a volcano
Because no matter whats beyond death it will all be for nothing
Either ill cease to be or theres an afterlife of some kind where inevitably ill just forget everything
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Post by gus169 on Jun 25, 2023 8:31:02 GMT -5
it all matters. human connections matter, however obscure. to 'history', yes, this might all be surplus detail, but it matters to me today. change is something we all have to accept though. sooner or later. we can only try to make it positive
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Post by killmenow on Jun 25, 2023 8:50:54 GMT -5
here's the thing .....people no longer fear death for the most part....
what people fear is truely living for themselves , everything is consume consume consume ..... trust the corprate overlords and consume , do as your told of else! if you don't follow the rules you're told your worthless , everyone must follow the current trend! if you don't your an outsider ...you must fall in line and do everything you're told!
people really don't know how to live anymore and put more stock in things of monetary value rather than living and enjoying life.
it's time ....it's time for people to step OUT of line and live for once , re-evaluate what matters most ....stop listening for the most current IN-thing and do what pleases YOU!
it's time to not worry about what people think about you because no matter who you are or what you have someone somewhere WILL have an opinion about you , live for you not for them.
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Post by 079 on Jun 25, 2023 13:06:05 GMT -5
Do things for you and have fun in the moment. Who cares if you are remembered after you die, because it will not have much of a bearing on you. That is how I approach it, anyway.
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Post by Method Games[YT] on Jun 25, 2023 16:07:09 GMT -5
Your song quote was from someone who suffered privately and publicly and expressed their feelings through their music, someone who was an amazingly gifted individual.
R.I.P Mr Chester Bennington.
Your post reminds me of numerous interviews held with Chester before his passing and if you genuinely feel this way, I'd urge you to seek some guidance from a healthcare professional.
Kindest regards.
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Post by shadethefluffmech on Jun 25, 2023 16:53:51 GMT -5
The scary thing to me isnt as much being forgotten
I just dont want to forget
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Post by shadethefluffmech on Jun 25, 2023 16:58:53 GMT -5
Your song quote was from someone who suffered privately and publicly and expressed their feelings through their music, someone who was an amazingly gifted individual. R.I.P Mr Chester Bennington. Your post reminds me of numerous interviews held with Chester before his passing and if you genuinely feel this way, I'd urge you to seek some guidance from a healthcare professional. Kindest regards. I think in my case its mostly over active anxiety with a little depression (which i can usually keep in check) mixed in |
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Post by shadethefluffmech on Jun 25, 2023 17:02:58 GMT -5
here's the thing .....people no longer fear death for the most part.... what people fear is truely living for themselves , everything is consume consume consume ..... trust the corprate overlords and consume , do as your told of else! if you don't follow the rules you're told your worthless , everyone must follow the current trend! if you don't your an outsider ...you must fall in line and do everything you're told! people really don't know how to live anymore and put more stock in things of monetary value rather than living and enjoying life. it's time ....it's time for people to step OUT of line and live for once , re-evaluate what matters most ....stop listening for the most current IN-thing and do what pleases YOU! it's time to not worry about what people think about you because no matter who you are or what you have someone somewhere WILL have an opinion about you , live for you not for them. While i appreciate the sentiment This is the wrong advice for me lol Id explain why but i do like having friends (joke but still...) |
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Post by wrmechanoid01 on Jun 26, 2023 8:55:16 GMT -5
I feel like I relate to this in a way, but since I deal with isolation issues, I can’t say I’m missing friends anymore than I want friends, forums and chats like these give me an easy open to meet people, but even then I don’t meet my “crew” I feel alone, sometimes being different from the norm isn’t a good thing
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Post by munkeeee on Jun 26, 2023 9:23:42 GMT -5
Didn’t want to step in, but feel as though maybe something someone may say will resonate, so here’s my two cents-
People suck, no way around it. I talk more with my patients in the ER than I do a lot of my fellow staff. Even then I don’t talk much. Life is gonna burn you, and continue to burn you. How you respond will show you who you are. In the Marines it was just that, you are military, tip of the spear, and in my case being with the grunts as an explosive expert, the very tip of the spear. At work, both the ER and fire dept, it’s front line. People wait and see your reaction to a crisis and gauge how they feel. And same with my self defense academy, women come in after traumatic experiences, and leave feeling empowered. An old saying, when the squeeze is on, some focus while others fold.
Don’t let the game distract you from life, it’s just a game. Same in life, don’t let others bs dictate who you are as a person, or the person you want to be. Not everyone travels the same path. Forge your own if you feel the road commonly traveled doesn’t suit you. Just like growing up my friends all wanted the fast muscle cars. I chose a Jeep wrangler. Fast is nice and all, but I can go off road to places they never could.
We all have bad days. And broken isn’t a bad thing. Put the pieces of yourself back together how you want and keep moving forward.
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